I'm a mess. Literally.
My house looks like a tornado hit it and despite two days of hard work, I just can't seem to make a dent in it. And tomorrow's my day to host playgroup.
The inside of my car is embarassing. If I had to give anyone a ride anywhere, I would just die.
The weeds in my landscaping are coming up faster than I can pull them. Right now, it's looking like we won't have all of our weeds pulled/mulch laid until September. Just in time for winter.
My hair ... sigh. It faintly resembles the mushroom cloud that comes after an atomic bomb. With a little layer of frizz on the top for added effect. I love humidity.
After 11+ months of breastfeeding I don't own a bra that fits. I was kind of hoping to wear something just a touch sexier than a nursing bra for my special anniversary weekend in the city with my husband, which led me to today's outing (see below). However, I guess sexiness might be out of the question anyway considering the mushroom on my head.
I don't know how it happened, but I have allowed my sweet, lovable, smiley little boy to turn into a Cheerio-throwing, screeching, kicking, writhing in his stroller B-R-A-T whenever we are out shopping/running errands. I do my best to prepare ahead of time -- packing snacks and a sippy cup, having a list and coupons ready, etc -- so that I can run in and run out whenever I need to go anywhere. Today we had to run to the mall. I needed to buy a shower gift for someone and was hoping to make it all the way through Macy's to Victoria's Secret. I printed the registry out ahead of time and decided on a few options of what to buy. When I got there, I quickly went up to the sales associate and asked her to help me find the items. Most of them, they didn't have. The ones they did have, the sales associate couldn't find. By this time, I'm sweating, Tanner has left a trail of Cheerios. He is already throwing a fit, but I'm choosing to ignore him. I finally settle on something in my price range and buy it. I make my way into the mall area and buy a coffee -- I know I'll need it. Tanner continues bad behavior. I never make it to Victoria's Secret. After I get Tanner to the car, change his diaper, transfer the mess from my stroller into the messy car, I drive away -- with my coffee still on the roof of my car.
Nice.
12 comments:
Oh Rachel!! I hope it helps to know that you are not alone! I think it was just last week when Brian affectionately asked me, "So, when's the last time you brushed your hair"? I think it had really been a couple of days. I just kept putting on a hat every time I had to leave the house. My hair is a mess (thankfully I'm going to get it cut tomorrow along with cashing in my Mother's Day certificate for a mani/pedi). In addition, we went to Lowe's to buy some room darkening shades for G's room and he screamed the entire time! We passed by an older couple who said, "So, that's the little guy I heard screaming..." and don't get me started on the nursing bras! Just an hour ago, Brian says, "what are you doing?" as I was looking down at my boob bulging over the top edge of the bra I JUST bought last week! I guess it didn't really fit!!! Anyway, I hope there's comfort in knowing you're not alone! I know you've been doing it longer than me and you're doing a great job and you encourage this new mama along every step. I appreciate the path you blaze for us! You and Jon will have a great time this weekend. Tanner's grammies are just going to love on him so much and that will be a nice relief while you and Jon get a chance to love on each other! Have a great time!
Rachel,
You are not alone. Every mom feels this at some time, and I bet every mom in your playgroup thinks their house is a mess too! That all comes with the territory of kids. Don't worry about him screaming in the store. From the time mine were 1-2, I didn't even attempt taking them anywhere. I just waited until Jason got home. I can remember trying to go the grocery store and not getting ANYTHING on my list and getting lots of junk (just grabbing stuff as I ran through the aisles). Craziness...but it gets easier...maybe not any cleaner, but easier:)
You are doing a terrific job and T knows you LOVE him, he is just getting a sense of independence. All of us moms are thinking the same things...you are NOT alone. Enjoy your weekend with your hubby.
and as for hair...I get mine done and it only looks good at the salon:)
Oh boy. All mom's have been there. I recently had a morning so bad with tantrums and everything going wrong that I broke down crying, called Mike and told him I couldn't be a mom that day. Chalk it up to pregnancy hormones, but seriously, we all have those days - and you have my sympathy :) As for the hair issues, I think we have Grandma to thank for that!
P.S. I just vaccumed my carpets for the first time in 3 weeks.
Rachel, I am laughing SO hard at your blog! You are too funny! It is a true motherhood moment, that we have ALL been through... and we're still there!! I can't wait to catch up with you at the weddings this summer! We will swap great stories I'm sure! Tanner is just beginning to give you so many "bloggable" moments :-)
Oh girl! So sorry about your bad day. We have all been there. I keep thinking the older the boys get, the easier it will be, but so far that hasn't happened. I probably would have started crying when I realized I'd left my coffee on top of the car. I hope you and Jon have a great weekend. Tanner is adorable! I love the zoo pics.
I love it! You're writing about something we all experience on a daily basis. The ONLY thing that I've figured out about this parenting role is that you never know what to expect, just when you think that you've got things under control and you are starting to figure it all out everything changes. You're doing a great job!
Sounds like Tanner has joined the Gasperini boys in being a... BOY! Nothing like the fits, noise, impatience, etc. we've dealt with for the past 3 years!! I'm with you, girl!! :)
Blessings as you prepare for an *awesome* weekend away. You are going to be so refreshed and able to return to loving that little man of yours with all of you... as you always do! Prayers for a great weekend!
Motherhood isn't always pretty, is it?! Sometimes it is down right ugly. Thank God for our husbands and children who love us despite it all :)
Have a great time this weekend with your beloved!
-Andrea
Hey Sweet and Beautiful Rachel,
You are a trooper... at least you have a great sense of humor recalling such a whirlwind of a day.
Tanner is lucky to have such a beautiful, smart, prepared, and patient mom.
Hang in there! xo Annie
Ahhhh! Isn't life with kids just grand?! I can barely remember the days when I could just run in and out of a store BY MYSELF! Now, I have to tow around two kids and all their STUFF. I thought I was doing great to get J potty trained, but then M came along and we were back to a diaper bag anyway. All that and the trail of Cheerios aside, I wouldn't trade them in for the world and I know you feel the same way about your little T. As for the hair and bra situation, don't get me started. I have been in need of something, anything, for my hair forever and I don't even know what because I don't have time in the morning before work to get J, M, and myself ready. Unfortunately for me, and D, I have the opposite problem in the boob area. a.k.a. there's nothing there! At least we aren't alone and we can all feel your pain and joy with having children. Hope you and Jon have a great anniversary weekend and have him treat you to a cup of coffee- you are a great mom, wife, and person and you deserve it!
Oh, by the by, I finally read The Other Boleyn Girl and absolutely loved it! I will catch up to you one of these days!
You're definitely a mom!
--Gena
www.homeschoolblogger.com/genamayo
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