What Does "WAIT" Mean?

Wow! It's been a while since my last entry. Lots has happened in the past two weeks!

I remember the four-month marker during the last deployment. I think that was right around the time my friend, Katie, and I read in the newspaper that our boys would be gone for a full year! Ouch! It was summertime and after reading the news, Katie and I just sat on the couch -- a little depressed, but assuring one another that we could do this and we'd be there for each other. We did, and we were, and everything turned out just fine.

This deployment's four-month marker was very similar! Let me back up a little. My husband received orders a few weeks ago to attend Special Forces selection. We had been looking forward to this for a while -- since he left in November, actually. For Jon it meant that he would get to try out for something he REALLY wants to do. For me, it meant that my husband would be coming home. For both of us, it meant a possible move this summer to a new post. Although I know better than to get my hopes up when the Army is making decisions about your life -- I did! However, to our disappointment, we found out a little over a week ago that Jon's unit refuses to release him and his orders are being delayed until October. Needless to say, I was very sad!

Over the past few months we have really been praying hard about this -- asking God to make clear what is the best thing for our future. I was certain that a "YES" would mean we were supposed to stay in the Army and a "NO" would mean it was time for us to move on. But what does "WAIT" mean?? I'll have to keep praying on that one. A few weeks ago at the retreat, I attended a workshop on listening to God. Hopefully, I can be a good listener. But just in case, God, could you make things loud and clear??

Despite the disappointment, it has been really exciting to consider some other options that we hadn't thought of before. My head is literally spinning and I am a little bit confused about everything! My husband has been fabulous throughout this -- very encouraging even though he's probably the one who could use the most encouragement. Jon has had a GREAT attitude -- I'm so proud of him! I have to admit that I was very angry with the Army in the beginning. But it's hard to stay mad at them when I know that they really aren't the ones in control -- God is.