Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love you, Tomorrow! You're Only a Day Away!
I got the call last night. Jon will be home in less than 24 hours. I'm feeling strangely calm. :)
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Just Breathe
Inhale.
Exhale.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Thank goodness for yoga. Otherwise, I'm sure I wouldn't have taken a single breath since last weekend. My stomach is constantly in flip-flop mode. My chest has this tight, anxious feeling. (Which is actually working out to be the perfect appetite suppressant -- I may look pretty good in all that new lingerie after all!) I constantly have tears behind my eyes, ready to fall anytime I hear or see something emotional. My husband is coming home THIS WEEK!!!!!!! Oh. My. God. Is this really for real? He should be leaving Iraq Tuesday and then be home by the end of the week. I'm just DYING of excitement!
I've spent the entire weekend trying to get the house ready for him. It's almost like having a guest come to stay -- too funny! I even cleaned my blinds and vacuumed around the baseboards. It is so wierd to look over at his side of the bed and know that he will be there by this time next week! It makes me very excited, but also a little nervous. I know from experience that it takes a while to adjust to each other again. But it's oh so worth it!
Right now, I'm at school trying to get things ready for the week. But I'm so anxious that I can't get anything done. School is still going really well. I honestly love coming to work everyday. My student teacher is doing a great job and will be starting to take more responsibility soon, which is great for me! The hardest part is knowing that we could possibly move before the end of the school year if Jon decides to stick with the Army. I love my kids and my school, and it would be REALLY hard to leave them without finishing the year, but after being away from my husband so much during the past 3.5 years, I think it would be the right choice.
I'll keep you updated on the welcome home. Hopefully I'll even have a few pictures to post soon!
Exhale.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Thank goodness for yoga. Otherwise, I'm sure I wouldn't have taken a single breath since last weekend. My stomach is constantly in flip-flop mode. My chest has this tight, anxious feeling. (Which is actually working out to be the perfect appetite suppressant -- I may look pretty good in all that new lingerie after all!) I constantly have tears behind my eyes, ready to fall anytime I hear or see something emotional. My husband is coming home THIS WEEK!!!!!!! Oh. My. God. Is this really for real? He should be leaving Iraq Tuesday and then be home by the end of the week. I'm just DYING of excitement!
I've spent the entire weekend trying to get the house ready for him. It's almost like having a guest come to stay -- too funny! I even cleaned my blinds and vacuumed around the baseboards. It is so wierd to look over at his side of the bed and know that he will be there by this time next week! It makes me very excited, but also a little nervous. I know from experience that it takes a while to adjust to each other again. But it's oh so worth it!
Right now, I'm at school trying to get things ready for the week. But I'm so anxious that I can't get anything done. School is still going really well. I honestly love coming to work everyday. My student teacher is doing a great job and will be starting to take more responsibility soon, which is great for me! The hardest part is knowing that we could possibly move before the end of the school year if Jon decides to stick with the Army. I love my kids and my school, and it would be REALLY hard to leave them without finishing the year, but after being away from my husband so much during the past 3.5 years, I think it would be the right choice.
I'll keep you updated on the welcome home. Hopefully I'll even have a few pictures to post soon!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Decision #1
So I got news today that my husband has made the first decision in deciding on some possibilities for our future. He is going to go to Special Forces Selection this October. On one hand, I'm really nervous about this -- I'm still not sure about the whole SF lifestyle. On the other hand, I'm really excited for him! This means that when he comes home, he will have a few weeks to train up and then be leaving again for about 30 days to try out for SF. So anyways, one decision down!
I just got home from dinner with my friends. They have officially approved the "Coming Home" dress. And I thought my wedding dress was important -- The "Coming Home" dress is what I'll be wearing the first time he's seen me in 9 months! Oh the pressure! I can't wait!
School is going well. I can't believe we've only been in class for 5 days! It has seemed so much longer! I'm exhausted! Everything with my student teacher is going well. Thank you Heidi, for reminding me to just let go of some of my control issues and give this person a chance to LEARN how to be a teacher. It has given me a whole new attitude and perspective about it all. Two more days until the weekend .... :)
I just got home from dinner with my friends. They have officially approved the "Coming Home" dress. And I thought my wedding dress was important -- The "Coming Home" dress is what I'll be wearing the first time he's seen me in 9 months! Oh the pressure! I can't wait!
School is going well. I can't believe we've only been in class for 5 days! It has seemed so much longer! I'm exhausted! Everything with my student teacher is going well. Thank you Heidi, for reminding me to just let go of some of my control issues and give this person a chance to LEARN how to be a teacher. It has given me a whole new attitude and perspective about it all. Two more days until the weekend .... :)
Friday, August 11, 2006
School Is Now In Session!
Yes, you read that correctly. I have just finished Day 2 of school. I am exhausted -- completely not used to speaking in my "teacher voice" for 7 hours a day and constantly "performing" in front of students. Oh yeah, and my feet are KILLING me -- they are used to flip-flops, not heels!
Despite all of this, I am LOVING my kiddos! I feel so lucky to have looped with my students from last year. We are literally picking up right where we left off. They have been completely angelic so far and all smiles as they come to class each day. I'm so glad we've had a great first few days -- what a relief! All those recurring nightmares for nothing! I think having a student teacher will be my biggest challenge in the coming months. It's hard to turn over your students and your classroom to someone else! Especially me, because I'm completely organized and anal when it comes to my job. I like everything a certain way. I'm praying for lots of patience and flexibility! Oh yeah, and a little bit of wisdom to share with this person, too!
Only about 2.5 more weeks until Jon is home! The days couldn't possibly go by any slower. I AM SO EXCITED!!!
Despite all of this, I am LOVING my kiddos! I feel so lucky to have looped with my students from last year. We are literally picking up right where we left off. They have been completely angelic so far and all smiles as they come to class each day. I'm so glad we've had a great first few days -- what a relief! All those recurring nightmares for nothing! I think having a student teacher will be my biggest challenge in the coming months. It's hard to turn over your students and your classroom to someone else! Especially me, because I'm completely organized and anal when it comes to my job. I like everything a certain way. I'm praying for lots of patience and flexibility! Oh yeah, and a little bit of wisdom to share with this person, too!
Only about 2.5 more weeks until Jon is home! The days couldn't possibly go by any slower. I AM SO EXCITED!!!
Monday, August 07, 2006
Tears at the PX
Before I go into complaining mode here, I have to talk about some positives.
1) My husband should be leaving to come home for R&R in 3 weeks! YAY!! Can I just tell you that I'm SOOOOOO excited and SOOO nervous to see him! I just bought the dress that I am going to wear when I pick him up at the airport and I feel like a gazillion bucks in it. What a relief. Now if I could just find some sexy lingerie that makes me feel the same way ...
2) School starts Thursday and I am so looking forward to seeing my kiddos! I just got my class lists and I had the majority of the students last year also. I am so lucky! I have really enjoyed being back at work, visiting with coworkers and getting everything ready for my students. Let's just hope I'm not singing a different tune after two weeks!
Okay, time for a little complaining. I just finished reading Daily Dentes and I feel like she is reading my mind about "Life on the D-List." I pretty much feel like everyone around here is over the collective feelings of patriotism and pride that this community had at the start of OIF. It's like no one cares if your husband is in the military, or even deployed for that matter. The first deployment was SOOO different. The spouses and community really pulled together and made life for those left behind bearable. We had coffees once a month, with other get-togethers in-between. (I know some wives don't agree with the whole "Coffee" concept, but I'm not picky -- I'll take friendship and support wherever I can get it.) There were tons of great activities planned on post. The Army and Fort Carson really made us spouses feel like we were part of something important -- that our roles as spouses left behind were vital to the success of our soldiers and our way of serving our country. I feel completely different now. Maybe that's why I've been feeling so bitter about this deployment and the Army in general.
On Saturday, I went to the PX to return an External Hard Drive. Since my husband was moving from one FOB to another, he wanted to save the information he had been working with, and so asked me to send him one. I bought it for about $120 at the PX and sent it in June. When Jon got it, he noticed that it had already been used before and had someone else's information already downloaded onto it. He mailed it back to me while I was in Michigan. So I really didn't think it was going to be a problem to return it. I mean, the worst they could do was give me store credit, right? I had the receipt and everything.
Boy, was I wrong. Turns out, the PX has a 15 day return policy on all computer hardware and software. Completely understandable. However, I asked to talk to the manager. I explained to her that there was no way I could have returned the item in 15 days because I sent it to my husband, who was deployed in Iraq. Plus, it was already used by someone else, and I felt like they had sold me a DEFECTIVE product. At first, she acted like she really didn't care and that there was nothing she could do. I continued to plead my case, getting very frustrated at her lack of understanding or even compassion. Then she started acting like my attempt at returning the item was suspicious. I couldn't help it -- the tears just came. You know when you are trying so hard not to cry and they just come anyways, and they won't stop? That was what happened! I was so angry and embarrassed. I thought that if any store would understand this situation, it would be the PX! Plus, I was wondering what I was going to do with a $120 hard drive that didn't even work right. After I started crying, she got a little flustered and decided to give me a store credit. As soon as I got the receipt, I walked out to my car and just sat there and sobbed.
I was so angry that I even had to go through that. I was so frustrated that my husband has been gone for so long and nobody even CARES around here! I was so OVER the Army. I kind of still am ...
1) My husband should be leaving to come home for R&R in 3 weeks! YAY!! Can I just tell you that I'm SOOOOOO excited and SOOO nervous to see him! I just bought the dress that I am going to wear when I pick him up at the airport and I feel like a gazillion bucks in it. What a relief. Now if I could just find some sexy lingerie that makes me feel the same way ...
2) School starts Thursday and I am so looking forward to seeing my kiddos! I just got my class lists and I had the majority of the students last year also. I am so lucky! I have really enjoyed being back at work, visiting with coworkers and getting everything ready for my students. Let's just hope I'm not singing a different tune after two weeks!
Okay, time for a little complaining. I just finished reading Daily Dentes and I feel like she is reading my mind about "Life on the D-List." I pretty much feel like everyone around here is over the collective feelings of patriotism and pride that this community had at the start of OIF. It's like no one cares if your husband is in the military, or even deployed for that matter. The first deployment was SOOO different. The spouses and community really pulled together and made life for those left behind bearable. We had coffees once a month, with other get-togethers in-between. (I know some wives don't agree with the whole "Coffee" concept, but I'm not picky -- I'll take friendship and support wherever I can get it.) There were tons of great activities planned on post. The Army and Fort Carson really made us spouses feel like we were part of something important -- that our roles as spouses left behind were vital to the success of our soldiers and our way of serving our country. I feel completely different now. Maybe that's why I've been feeling so bitter about this deployment and the Army in general.
On Saturday, I went to the PX to return an External Hard Drive. Since my husband was moving from one FOB to another, he wanted to save the information he had been working with, and so asked me to send him one. I bought it for about $120 at the PX and sent it in June. When Jon got it, he noticed that it had already been used before and had someone else's information already downloaded onto it. He mailed it back to me while I was in Michigan. So I really didn't think it was going to be a problem to return it. I mean, the worst they could do was give me store credit, right? I had the receipt and everything.
Boy, was I wrong. Turns out, the PX has a 15 day return policy on all computer hardware and software. Completely understandable. However, I asked to talk to the manager. I explained to her that there was no way I could have returned the item in 15 days because I sent it to my husband, who was deployed in Iraq. Plus, it was already used by someone else, and I felt like they had sold me a DEFECTIVE product. At first, she acted like she really didn't care and that there was nothing she could do. I continued to plead my case, getting very frustrated at her lack of understanding or even compassion. Then she started acting like my attempt at returning the item was suspicious. I couldn't help it -- the tears just came. You know when you are trying so hard not to cry and they just come anyways, and they won't stop? That was what happened! I was so angry and embarrassed. I thought that if any store would understand this situation, it would be the PX! Plus, I was wondering what I was going to do with a $120 hard drive that didn't even work right. After I started crying, she got a little flustered and decided to give me a store credit. As soon as I got the receipt, I walked out to my car and just sat there and sobbed.
I was so angry that I even had to go through that. I was so frustrated that my husband has been gone for so long and nobody even CARES around here! I was so OVER the Army. I kind of still am ...
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