Just a Little Complaining

Darn it!  I realized halfway through today that I forgot to blog yesterday, which means I already missed my goal of blogging 30 days in a row.  AHHH!!  Jon was right.  I hate it when that happens! :)

This hasn't been the best week for us, but we're hanging in there.  Prepare for a little negativity!  This is mostly just ME venting!!  It's been consistently cold and grey outside and I'm ashamed that I haven't taken the boys outside to play in more than a week.  I just want to stay cozy inside!!  The time changed on Sunday -- I abhor falling back!  It's so hard with little kids!  They just don't seem to understand that it's OKAY to sleep for an extra hour! ;)  Plus, it gets dark now around 4:15, which is the worst!

Just before trick-or-treating last week, I realized that Landon had hand, foot, and mouth disease.  Definitely NOT our first experience with that, but it sure took him a long time to get better!  Today was his first day back at school -- it took a full 8 days for the blisters on his hands to heal.  Poor guy.  I'll admit that it was nice to be home all day for the first few days, but by day 5, I was really missing the gym, friends, etc.  Glad that we can get back into the swing of things now!

Tanner has been super grumpy and whiney -- I wish I knew what was going on.  Part of me thinks he's just tired.  He's at that weird age where he probably needs a nap once or twice a week, but would NEVER willingly take one.  Despite his bad attitude, he and Landon have been playing SO WELL together all week.  I've been really making an effort to have the TV turned off from breakfast time until after dinner and bath.  To be honest, the boys haven't even noticed.  They've been playing with their Imaginext sets, Halloween costumes, board games, etc.  I'm so glad they have each other.

Last night we had Kellen's pre-op appointment for his surgery in a few weeks.  His circumcision wasn't done correctly at birth, so we are having to get it fixed.  I've been a little nervous about it since he has to go under general anesthesia, but talking to the urologist yesterday made me feel much better.  She explained all the details of the procedure and recovery.  All I can say is it's a good thing we're getting this out of the way while he's still a baby!

I stopped nursing about 2 weeks ago.  It really wasn't something that I wanted to do and I've felt such huge regret over it ever since.  Kellen hadn't been nursing well for several weeks, I was starting to feel really stressed about it, and I just felt like he was ready to be done.  The problem is that he hasn't been crazy about formula either.  I feel like he eats hardly anything all day, and then is hungry at night.  He goes to bed super early -- 6pm, and always gets up at least once at night to eat.  He's such a good baby, but MAN am I anxious for him to sleep a solid 12 hours at night with no eating!!   

He is sitting up really well now and army crawling all over the place.  The boys and I recently made space for the toddler toys in the playroom, and Kellen just LOVES to be in there with the big boys crawling around and watching them play.

I'm feeling very down lately about the last few pounds of pregnancy weight that I still need to lose.  I know I need to give myself some grace.  It's not like 5 pounds is the end of the world, but for some reason I've put so much pressure on myself to lose the weight since the moment I gave birth, I just want to be done with it.  I wish it wasn't so hard.  I wish I didn't have to diet off every single pound.

This weekend we are heading to Michigan to spend time with all of the grandparents.  I'm looking so forward to being with our parents.  They always fill my tank with words of encouragement and acts of love.  Here's to hoping that I come home with a better attitude than I have right now.

I'm off to bed in hopes of starting things off on the right foot tomorrow morning!