Warning: neurotic ramblings ahead
For once in my life, I actually feel okay with my body. I mean, I know that it's far from perfect, I'm still about 5 lbs heavier and definitely somewhat rounder than pre-baby. But for some reason, that just doesn't bother me right now. I've never felt so comfortable in my own skin as I have since giving birth. Nevertheless, with the start of a new year, I find myself at a crossroads. Do I continue to love my figure and feel good about this body that bore my son and continues to nurture him? Or is being okay with a few extra lbs "letting myself go?" I mean ... I can't really use the "I just had a baby excuse" for much longer -- it's been over 6 months!
We are only 10 days into the New Year and already I'm fed up with the media and our society's obsession to lose weight. I feel like my first, habitual reaction is always "I'm so fat." Then I take a step back, stop and think, and say "Be good to yourself." (my inner yogi coming out :) Maybe it's because, year after year, I've jumped on the bandwagon just like everyone else and used my weight as a measuring stick for self-worth. I'm determined not to do that anymore. I want to exercise to make myself feel good instead of just working out to lose weight. I don't want to feel guilty about every morsel of food I put into my mouth. Am I living in a dream world or is this really possible? Will loving my figure as it is make me a happier person or will it land me on a future season of "The Biggest Loser?"
On a sidenote ... I was able to go to a Vinyasa yoga class at my gym yesterday. Boy did it make me miss my old yoga studio in Colorado! I guess I was a little disappointed, but I will continue to attend the class every week. I think I was just hoping for something a little more intense. I wish I was able to have an intense practice by myself at home, but it's just not the same. Any yogis out there with suggestions?
4 comments:
R, I don't think that 5 lbs is going to count as letting yourself go. Things change after having a baby, and your body will never look quite the same, even if your the same weight as before. Its wonderful to hear that you love your body for what it is. And J will probally see that difference too. ;) Confidence is a great thing. Keep loving your body and yourself and keep off the scales, and you'll look great.
Elena.
I think a moderate approach to fitness/body image is the way to go--don't obsess, but still nurture your body as the precious gift from God that it is! I love that yoga really works the mind too, a truly holistic approach to achieving health. How wonderful that having your precious boy has put it all in perspective... Just remember that life is a marathon, not a sprint! Hugs!
You're such a beautiful person!!! Remember how everyone commented on how awesome you looked in your pics from the hospital after Tanner's birth. The most beautiful new Mom ever!! I like B-mama's advice...a moderate approach and perspective that life is a marathon. If it makes you feel better, I really miss Core Power too! It's tough to find something that compares.
Rachel self worth - and opinions of you should be based on what is on the insides! And you are one of the most beautiful (inside but also outside) people that I know. Your strong faith, excellent mommy skills, great friend, good wife, good morals, etc. Are what make you beautiful. I'm so glad to hear you say you're happy with yourself - you should be! Life is to be enjoyed not obsessing over bites of food, or minimal pounds. As long as you are healthy and feel good about yourself that's what matters!
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