I've just checked the temperature outside and it's only like 78 degrees. My air conditioner is on. However, I'm sitting here practically sweating. I am someone who is always cold, yet I haven't slept with any covers in like 2 weeks. I keep threatening my husband that we are going to get a fan in our room and he pleads with me not to as he is cold at night. He probably just likes how I have to practically strip down naked to keep from sweating to death. :) This is too wierd. It's a good thing I only have one more month of pregnancy and don't have to go through the entire summer!
Little T's room is slowly coming along. The bedding has been ordered and shipped and Jon just needs to get the furniture assembled. I've started washing his blankets, towels, hand-me-down clothes, etc in special baby detergent (it took 5 loads if you can believe it). I haven't even started on the new clothes and onesies that are hanging in his closet. I think I'll just do a few newborn outfits and then save the rest to launder once we are sure he really is a boy! It took me two full days to go through all of his things. I have to admit, though, it made me really excited to meet my little guy! Unbelievable that he could be here sometime in the next few weeks! I went yesterday to buy our car seat and stroller. I'm hoping to install it and go to get it inspected tomorrow. Then we'll officially be okay to bring our baby home from the hospital! The pack'n'play is all set up right next to my bed. I keep looking inside it and feeling amazed that there is actually going to be a little person in there soon!
Do you ever REALLY feel prepared to be a mother? I mean, I was sure I was ready for this way before we even started trying to have a baby. Now I have this feeling like, "oh crap, what did I get myself into!" Don't get me wrong -- I am completely excited and feel SO blessed -- but like I've said before, I'm so scared! It's kind of the same feeling I had when I waited at the starting line of my half-marathon a few years ago. Or for those of you in Colorado Springs -- the way you feel when you start the Incline -- after you are about 50 steps into it and you see that you still have what seems like 999,950 steps to go. It's the same way I felt when my parents dropped me off at college and I sat there at the welcome banquet with all of the other volleyball players, wondering just what life would be like as a college athlete. Like "YIKES!! Can I really do this???" Anyone who knows me, especially my husband, knows that being a "mom" (and wife, of course) is all I've ever REALLY wanted to be. Now I feel like I'm getting ready to start my dream job, the most important thing I'll ever do, the thing I've looked most forward to in life, and I just don't want to mess up. I want to enjoy every second of it.
It helps a lot when I read other mothers' blogs, like the Foss Family's, the Berndt Family's, or Gasperiniville. Their sweet pictures and anecdotes about their everyday lives help me to see that it's all going to be okay. I just need to RELAX about it all ... but I don't want to be TOO relaxed ... Oh my ...
I've been putting off going to the gym for about 3 hours now, so I better get going. Then I'm going to shower and treat myself to an afternoon at the book store reading and sipping a decaf latte -- or maybe a frappucino or milkshake instead with all of this heat!
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I am always freezing and Brady is always burning up. Well, when I was pregnant I was turning the air on (in February) and running it in the car. Brady was complaining he was freezing. It is all that extra insulation!
The only thing I ever wanted to be was a mother. I think I have been counting the days since childhood. But, when we found out we were going to have a baby, I had a minor (Brady would say major) panic attack and freaked out a tad. Then, towards the end, I kept thinking is this what I really wanted, what have I got myself into?
But, I get to snuggle with Kennedy and give her sweet kisses everyday and it is more than I could have ever imagined.
Kennedy has her own website you can visit: www.babysites.com/sites/plummer
Hope you enjoy your afternoon!
I was lucky enough to be pregnant in the winter, but I too was hot all the time. You will be a wonderful mother, just rememeber that we ALL make mistakes. That was my favorite part of your shower was listening to the mom's talk about their mistakes...we all survived!
Definitely wait to wash is new stuff a little at a time. I had washed all of Ayden's stuff because I was so excited and then he was 9 lb 14 oz so wore his 0-3 month stuff for like 3 days! Please let me know if you need anything. We are anxiously awaiting word on his arrival!
I remember when I was pregnant with my second child and we had not told anyone. My SIL was talking about how the thought of having one child kind of worried her because there were so many things to consider. I started to really panic thinking I would have two children! Now three little ones later and as I watch them grow up, I wouldn't change a thing. It is absolutely the most amazing thing I have ever done in my life to create these three unique individuals! Good luck and stay cool!
You're going to be a great mother! I wasn't too nervous when I was pregnant, but I was totally nervous when we brought Kyle home from the hospital. I remember the day like it was yesterday. I was holding Kyle as the nurse wheeled me out to the car, we got him in his car seat and then the nurse said goodbye to us. It was at that very moment I got scared! It was like the responsibility of being a parent & raising a little person hit me like a ton of bricks! I was so scared that I wouldn't know HOW to take care of him...what if he cried and I couldn't get him to stop, what if I didn't feed him enough, what if I fed him too much, what if I didn't hear him cry in the middle of the night, and my biggest fear of all: What if, when I picked him up from daycare, I wouldn't know which baby was mine! I know that sounds stupid, but I really worried about that!
The unknown is always a little scary, but each day you learn a little more about being a mom! Kids grow up so fast, everyone always says that, and it's true. Kyle turned 9 years old last month, it's like I blinked my eyes and he was grown.
You're going to have so much fun with little Tanner, we can't wait to hear when he arrives! Oh, by the way, I DID know which baby was mine when I went to pick him up from daycare! How silly for me to have worried about that!
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