I must confess that I feel like I'm in a very awkward stage of pregnancy right now. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE that I am pregnant and I am SO excited to be able to cuddle and love on my little sweet pea once he or she is born. I just feel awkward! I am having a really hard time right now watching my body change. I definitely haven't had the energy to work out as much as I used to. And I go back and forth between thinking "I'm pregnant, I'm just going to eat whatever I want for once and not worry about it" and "I don't want to be HUGE when it's all over an not be able to lose the weight." (The first thought is usually what wins out -- the second just makes me feel guilty!) I'm definitely not ready for maternity clothes yet, but my jeans are steadily getting tighter and tighter -- in all the wrong places like the butt and thighs. (HMMM -- it must be the dryer, right?) I know I just need to quit freaking out and ENJOY this time. I haven't even mentioned the mood swings yet. My goodness -- my poor husband! I started crying the other day in my car as I watched a fire truck pull up next to another car on post and help a mom and her little boy (who I think might have been choking). And don't even think about teasing me or joking with me -- that usually sets off the tear ducts as well.
Jon, on the other hand, is doing fantastic as an expectant father. He attended his first "Daddy Boot Camp" session last week, where they told him they thought he was going to be an awesome dad. I totally agree! I can't wait to see what he's like with a baby!
Other things ARE happening in my life right now besides growing a baby in my belly. I am HOME for Christmas and SO happy to be with family! (It is so good not to be working right now!) As always, it is wonderful to be home! I can't wait to see all of my extended family on Christmas Eve! I get to meet my cousin Carolyn's baby for the first time and I can't wait! Unil then, it will just be a lot of shopping, relaxing, baking, and laughing with my mom and sister.
In case I don't get around to posting again before the 25th,
Merry Christmas!
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Everything you are feeling is TOTALLY normal! I have a feeling all pregnant women feel awkward when they're starting to put on weight, but aren't showing yet. It's a transition time between maternity clothes and regular clothes and it sucks! You'll go through the same thing after you give birth, too. Luckily, Grandma Fagan and my mom bought me tons of maternity clothes :) The food thing is something I struggled with as well. Just take it meal by meal. The baby will get it's nutrients no matter what you eat, so try not to freak out about it...I have come to believe that the fatigue (although it eases up in the 2nd trimester, and comes back with avengence in the 3rd) is God's way of saying - look, you think you're tired now, just wait until the baby gets here!
Okay - I have rambled on enough. I am just so excited for you! We can't wait to see you guys, too!
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